Monday, January 24, 2011

I am back, now if i can just remember where i am back from

well, it has been awhile. so many thngs have changed. mainly i lose my oldest son. it has really taken me for a loop. i love him so much. the what ifs is really driving me crazy. my alzheimer's has really taken a nose dive. i try not to stress but that is a useless effort. i see him and it takes my breath away. we had gotten so close in the last few years. i lose my mother last year and the pain with losing my son is so far out there that there is no comparison. we no longer have a chapter here and i am here alone now. no more speeches, no more interviews, no more getting the word out. i feel like a redheaded step child. i keep busy sewing, crocheting, knitting, whatever it takes to keep my hands going.